It's fun to be out sometimes with a whole bunch of crazy people at night,we went to the sky garden at suntec after dinner.View was cool,and the place was just serene,and somehow lively at the same time.

We went to the playground downstairs my house,just the four guys and just talked.The thing bout sharing sessions sometimes,is that you'd feel alot better,cause you know its not just your life thats shit.Jin xian as usual,with his "honest and humble" opinions never fails to make me ponder.He's the kind whose straight forward,added with a drop of laughter and a whole load of sarcasm.But thats the thing i like most about him,honesty.And inevitably the talk would come to girls,and somehow i think deep down i already knew what he and most would say.

If it were me in his shoes i'd say the same,but it's a pity i'm not,and i guess only i truly know how i feel.They say i'm coping well and all,almost coping too well,but fact is i'm not.Who can truly feel the hurt deep inside,that i refuse to let it show on my face.Who would know the sleepless nights,and the tears that really fell.

But i know that this has to have a conclusion without anyone's advice,and i know i must find it for only then would everything be definite and clear.Rui will smile again,and through that once tear stained face,you will know he is truly happy again.

I've come to realise alot of things through this chapter of my life even though it hasn't truly closed yet,and through that i've come to regret even more something i regretted long ago.But i guess it's life,the true value and meaning is often found when you lose it.I must smile,for i have given the best gift,i have loved truly with my heart.Cliche as it may sound,i know it's true,for only i know the things i would have done for you.Rui will promise himself here,he will be happier,cause he has realised he should smile for it happened,and not cry because it ended